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somethings gotta give…
i hate fez…he is just NEVER going to promote me. in 37 years, i have never had someone hate me so completely. this is epic hatred! i have no leadership skills?!?!?! dude fukk you and the underground tunnel you crawled through to get here you short sonovabitch! gawd, mike offered to pay my dmv fines so i could get my license back-how classic is that? i should repay him by paying for a divorce lawyer… ew! i just saw elisa from my hell depot days,..gawd i don’t like her…AT ALL!!! ok, back to right now. so mike has been transferred out of my life, and it’s killing me. not 3 minutes after hugging him goodbye on friday i was in tears. it’s so funny to me that just 4 months ago when he got to my store i hated him…now, not seeing him on a regular basis breaks my heart. that man EARNED my respect, and now he’s gone. then i talk to my babysis later that night…our dad is sick, like possibly dying sick. thirty+ years of various addictions eating away at his insides. my babysis is so freaked out by this and she has every reason to be. she’s rasinfin 3 kids…she doesn’t have time to take care of our dad & babybro also. i may have to put myself on hold…move to the 951 to take care of them. i HATE the 951…why would anyone want to move to a city-sized methlab? and jenner is about to get evicted…and then johanna calls with craziness out in savannahGA. thankfully, johanna has found the strength i always knew lay inside her and pulled hersself up by her garterbelt and is turning from scared grrl into the young woman she needs to be…for herself, for her soo-to-be-born child. this makes me happy and quite proud of her. i love her. one less thing to completely stress over. i guess i’m just not really doing so well right now.
i’ve been so tired lately, i’m really just getting too old for working so fukking hard. i feel so drained, all the time. i need to sleep for like a week straight, then maybe, just maybe, i’ll feel better, but i’m guessing not.
i miss him, and he says he misses me. that makes me a little happy, but it’d makes me happier if i could see him. we were supposed to go out when he got off work saturday night, but he ended up working night so that didn’t happen :( and with him moving to a new store just going out for a beer or anything becomes much more difficult.
grrrrr
