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jaded….
i don’t know…just feeling a little lost & anxious & alone & like i don’t matter…to me, even. i don’t feel ‘small’, so i know its not the bottom end of bipolar. and i don’t really feel manic, but i guess i could best describe it as a weird bit of rapid-cycling. wish i could give it a better name or description, but for once i’m kinda at a loss for words. awkward, right? i still can’t get him out of my mind & i think i may have made it clear to him tonight that i’d like to be a mommie. who knows, tho…boys can be amazingly dense somedays.
i want rollerskates…now
